To The Ones Becoming: On Navigating the Emotional Cycle of Change (ECOC)
Some things I thought I had figured out at the start of the year… I quickly realized I hadn’t. I started the year silently. No loud “this year is about this or that” on my status. I just showed up to greet a few people on my contact list a Happy New Year, a Happy New Year on my status, and that was all. I did that intentionally, to prove something to myself. I was done with the “new year, new me” mantra because it doesn’t work. I didn’t try to wake up early on this day, nor did I shower or even have breakfast early. If not for my parents, I wouldn’t have even gone out of the house. It was a new year, true. I felt all the emotions of “this is a new year, true” . But I also knew, deep down, that it didn’t mean anything had changed within me as a person. I still have fears. I still have habits that drain me. I still have passions I wish to start. And, mostly, there is still a version of me I am yet to become. So, I didn’t try to gas myself up at all. Instead, I sat with r...